Saturday, December 26, 2009

MERRY XMAS

this year Xmas ...... enjoyed myself .........

firstly is with some frens and colleagues at chalet ..........
having steamboat and BBQ ...... first time trying steamboat at chalet ...... not bad within the buget ......... heee ............

receive few presents ..... heee

but feel abit sad i cant give anything to them ........ due to too tight .........

secondly spend my day with BB .... hehe .......
love the time tgt ...........
so relax and carefree ....... heee

we are just too different

no mood ........

have been damn tired and tend up this few month ........

money is always not enough for mi ......
family need money....
i need money for transport, meal , bill, school fee .......

so much thing need money .......
my pay wasnt that high to meet the min requirement of my need ..........
ppl may think i greedy for money ........

i could just say YES i need money .........

if u don understand my situation ... just don comment .........
as i know u cant bother to know wat i'm facing .........
so shut up and move on with ur life ........

i nv complain to anyone regarding my situation exclude my bb .......
so no one will understand .......

recently .....
i took a another part time job .......
it will be very tiring to cope with all this ........

now everyday ...... without the clock striking at 10.30pm u wont be able to see mi at home ........

everyday ......... every night ..........
working and working non stop .........
even for the night that i'm having lesson ..........
i will be working as usual in the day .......
if those night without lesson .......
u will still find mi busy working ..........

working and working for the entire life .........
when will be my life getting better ........
2 year down the road or 10 year .........
only god know .........

i'm always looking in the bright side .......
as long as i finish my study
i will have a better life and a lesser burden for mi to carry .....
i will keep this in my mind .....
my target is to get a better life when i turn 26

i will get what i want and work into my target .......

jia you

..... weekend is always past faster than weekday ......... becoz weekday have more days than weekend ??


i doubt that the reason ...........


this weekend ......... i don enjoy it ..........
thing isn't the same any more .........
he has his life while i have mine ............
thinking and expectation are so different in all ways .............


the times spend tgt are lesser and lesser .....
the distance of us is getting bigger and bigger ................


wanted to spend more time but it seem that is so much different from last time ......


he requested mi to be more understanding ............


when he requested mi this ........... do he know how heavy the word can be .................
why i chose to sleep first and ignore his soccer match .........
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i know he dote mi when i requested stuff .......... thanks for the meal that i requested ................
but .......... beside the meal that we having tgt ............. nothing else brighten my mood ..............


anyway i have no confident le ............

hai .........

shhhh ...........

accidently knew something but if he/she/it do not wish to say ......... i shall shhhhhhh.......
he/she/it do not know or realise that i had already knew and sense something fishy ...........

don you know that if you lie 1 time ....... u need to lie 100 times to cover up the 1st lie .........

therefore there is some leak hole in between ........ which make u in a disadvantage position.

maybe he/she/it felt uncomfortable to say out ....... haha i respect it ...... haha but i find it no point to lie to everyone ..........

haha i know it is none of my business ..... but i just felt uncomfortable for all those lie ...........

if he/she/it do not wish anyone to know ....... just make sure ur lie is prefectly covered .......

used to believed that everything is misunderstanding ....... but i realise i'm the one misunderstood the whole situation .........

nvm .........

i shall move on and keep shhhhh still he/she/it decide or feel comfortable to voice out

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gal ar gal ........... always have trouble .................. never ending ...............

一山未停一山又起

我为什么总是心酸酸，有说不出的酸甜苦辣。
人生让我真的喘不过气来，有时还会失去控制，大哭大闹

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我们出现了问题，没两三天我们又吵架
又怕又担心又心痛，不知所错

不想伤害他但是还是发生了
我知道我很嘛凡让他很头痛，
但是我从来没有要和他吵架，
但他认为我是找吵架的。

我真的不知道要做什么才对。

been moody and emo almost all days ..........

tired and sick almost at all time

feel like doing sometime i like ....... but ......... time is always not enough ........... wanted to rot at home whole day ........... but don wanna take leave to rest ..........

just looking forward for my long weekend ........... shopping to relieve my stress or burden ..........

haha ppl will be wondering wat stress i'm facing as my work load wasn't that heavy ..........

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mentally stress with alot stuff ............
gals stuff , work stuff , school stuff , money stuff ............. so much thing in my mind

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Malaysia trip ....







And

My Birthday presents ....... oops ...... haha not all presents is up ......
I still have bags and dress not in the pic ..... =p thz everyone for the presents .....